I am heeding Darlene's advice when she told me to view this time with Delsie and Barkley as a gift. That being said, I am having difficulty communicating the reality of this entry. Knowing that the end of my partnership with Delsie has ended. Yet, the new relationship with Barkley has begun. I want to enjoy it and not have any regrets. Is that possible? So many questions. Tons of unknowns. A bit of apprehension and a lot of anxiety.
This is when the words of Darlene echo in my head, "enjoy this time", "view it as a gift", "every recipient and dog are different". I need to just relax and dive into it and know it may be harry for awhile but we'll figure it out. I will choose to relish in the time I have with D and Barkley.
Death is inevitable. The grief process is hard. It comes like a tidal wave. I have already begun to grieve this loss and know it probably will never end. It will just be different.
I didn't think it would be like this. Nothing in my life has turned out the way I thought it would, for that matter. But that doesn't mean it's not good. Just different.
Yet I will make a choice to live for the moment-the here and now- that's all I can do. It's a gift.
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